Realization

I am pretty sure that I am the happiest I’ve been in a long time. I have no strings attached nothing to stop me form saying what is on my mind and doing the things I enjoy doing.

My close friends know that and I hope that you all know that too. I am incredibly thankful for you all and my family. You make every day worth waking up for.

medium sized rant.

nautimermaid:

Nothing is more disgusting then when I see someone say or do something completely out of their own character to attract the opposite (or same) sex.

Be you, you’ll never be good enough at attempting to be someone you’re not.

I’d rather be alone forever then couple with someone who was anything less then my best friend. 

THIS!

SST

It’s Everything about her. Everything.

truthful tuesday part duex.

I still listen to straightedge hardcore. 

AND I LOVE IT.

The message was powerful, the breakdowns were sick, the feeling was untouchable.

*I know I am true to myself in the decisions that I have made when I broke my committment. I never will doubt another persons choices in their life, be it positive or negetive. Being ‘FOREVER TRUE’ starts with yourself.

I wish the straightedge kids would understand that, some have lost themselves in the ‘scene’ and what it was that brought them there in the first place.

One word.

UNITY.

I was going to write a heart felt post.

then I realized that feelings are kinda gay. Just know that there are some people here that I would cut for.

Now that I am home and settled.

It feels weird, I find myself more so sitting on my computer. I wanna go out and do something outside but at the sametime I would rather stay here in the dark with this 24in monitor glowing back at me. listening to 311 and getting “fresh” by myself. The weather outside is awesome and sun is starting to finally set. 

I don’t have a music project anymore, I don’t play drums nearly as often as I use to. I haven’t pulled out my motorcycle out and done all the maintenance for this season that is starting. I feel scattered, bothered, and alone more often than ever before. I know I have tons of friends lots of people to hang out with, but something inside never feels right. I am for the most part completely turned off by the opposite sex, I have had girls through themselves at me at bars and I am totally naive and just walk away completely uninterested.

I think I am going to have to make some serious changes in my life soon. Some of these changes scare the crap out of me cause they involve doing things I never thought of myself doing. Maybe its for the better, maybe I losing it. One of my best friends may be moving far away. I got to look at doing something like that for myself. Completely change everything. 

I haven’t posted may posts with more than a sentence cause I have had little to nothing to say, I blame my current state for that. On the outside I will always smile even though inside I am empty. Thanks for reading this babble, I love you guys. I really do and unfortunately you all will never know truly know how much ya’ll mean to me.

every time i see “taken with picplz”.

In my head i say NIGGA PLEASE.