I can’t beleive its been over a week since I posted here.

I just *checked* my tumblr, and I realized I havn’t posted anything in more than a week. I do get come here and give you guys hearts if that counts for anything. It has been a kind of an interesting week. Lots of ups and downs as usually.

This previous weekend had a lot of drinking involved. I went to the Biergarten Haus in Northeast DC for a friend’s birthday who just so happens to be one of my close buddy’s girlfriend. So it was already going to be epic no matter what happened. The place is as awesome as it sounds massive 32oz + glasses of good beer. I had 3 and to say i was sober is a lie. I will be going back there even for like 13-15 bucks a massive glass its still overall cheaper cause its deleicious and did mention fucking huge!!

The following day I was supposed to go tubing on the Shenandoah River, but that didn’t. I was supposed to be in Reston, VA at like 9am and I woke up at the ol’ 11am. So I ended up just hanging out with my sister and took it easy.

On Tuesday I did something pretty big. I don’t even know if I should post this here but what the fuck right? This girl and I had been pretty close for a very long time, she would leave and come back and leave. I always said why can’t these other girls be this awesome. She is a clean-cut punk rocker like myself. We have damn near everything in common and I feel pretty good around her, and I am pretty sure she is that comfortable around me too. So I ended up spilling the beans of our relationship for some over 10 or more years of our lives. I know that it wasn’t the right time for her, but it had to be said. She responded rather positively. She can take what I however she wants to. I know that its off my chest. Feels pretty good.

I am supposed to hang out with her when she gets back from New Hampshire. I hope it goes well. I noticed that I myself have put myself in the non dateable category, just because I am horrible at relationships. I’ve tried to love another person but I just can’t do it. The girl always falls for me and I am speechless and don’t know what to say so I stop hanging out and stop answering their phone calls.

It sounds childish, I know. This is just my own defense mechanism as petty as it may sound. So with this leaf turned, maybe my life could answer those questions that I’ve always wanted. Who knows I might be back at square one again, but hey I can truly try to start over and not just deliver my goods and run and not call.

Also, those of you that are still reading this be prepared for #PBRDrinkoff2010 in August. My Personal Brand Ruiner drinking is top notch right now. Plus team DC should come out of the fence swinging pretty hard. I know I can man handle team CLT. Its just team Jersey that worries me a little bit. Jillzey I am all for team boobs!